I am finally using the laptop again. I feel like such an irresponsible blog owner for completely putting my blog aside and not even blogging about anything... for so long. So to sort of 'pay my debts' i will take the time to post a fucking lost post for the sake of it and for whoever whose gonna read it. Which i doubt that there'll even be anybody reading my blog hahahahha story of my life ah k.

soooo school is alright i still can't accept the fact that i'm in sec 4 and taking my N levels this year. Adding on to the fact that teachers DO make it very stressful for students as ONE, for every single day you're in school, let me repeat EVERY SINGLE DAY, they will yap on and on and on about the importance of going up to secondary 5 and the criteria and blablabla. Every single fucking day ok. how can you not get pressurized. seriously????? teachers????? other than that, the new topics are quite manageable. for now, obviously. i'm just waiting for that one fine day where i will explode and will break down cause of all the bloody facts about certain topics that i can't seem to understand. i'm sure that day will come someday ;) errrr other than thattttt okay there's nothing else let's move on bleah

honestly i think i've got quite a few cliques that i have to sometimes juggle here and there. and that sometimes may turn me into an indecisive person, i admit. but i really miss my friends. really i do :) i miss my beautiful girls(nazatul,haryanti,aliyah etc) and i too miss the group (jamie,shikin,julian etc) and especially yan and shaa, my childhood buddies. sometimes i really do wish i could turn back to when we were all having a great time. all of us (in general) i'm just thankful for having such great friends. the ones who really stuck by me when i was crushed and when i was all smiles. i know, i'm not an irreplacable or amazing or nice friend. but i really do love them. even though i screw up sometimes that'll make them upset or whatsoever, i'll always try my best to find a way and get back to them. there are some froms whom i've drifted off from but maybe that's how things are. yes?

okay there's nothing much to say. same old same old, crazy outgoing family. i love them all :) very very much. they'll always be a priority, never an option. chey. 

sooo in general everything's alright now. whatever happens, happens! buaiisssss(irritating)

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